I blame myself… for everything…

These last few days have been really tough. I've spent all my days trying to get the attention of someone who didn't care.

So now what I'm looking for is an outlet for my overwhelming emotions trying to spill over. I still don't know what I'm gonna do this weekend. But I want to do things that will keep my mind occupied. Enough so I don't have to think about anything else.

Honestly, I really mad at myselft for getting into this situation. I blame myself for being optimistic, which is clearly not my usual way of doing things.

I blame myself… for everything.