would you call me a « generous » person?

For those who know me, would you call me a « generous » person?

I have recently received testimonials from several people who highlight my generosity. But personally, if I were to state my possible qualities, generosity would probably not be on my list.

So, tell me… I’m intrigued ????.


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Two in a row

I told one person tonight that I sometimes didn’t sleep at all for two days in a row, but they didn’t believe me.

I mean, that’s really something I did at one time, but that’s in the distant past now. Now I’m limited to one day at the most.

It used to happen to me when I was still in college. Sometimes it was really for no particular reason. At the beginning of the night, I would come across an interesting site or article. And from link to link, I’d find myself scouring the internet all night long. Then at 6 o’clock in the morning, I would take a shower and go to school.

I remember that I also did it once when I was going to the baccalaureate. Then, I think it must have been for Physics and Chemistry. I clearly hadn’t studied. Like, at all. As a result, the few nights before the composition of this subject, I spent them widening my eyes on my course book ????.

But it’s still fascinating how our bodies can adapt to any situation!


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I just wanna go home

I’ve been living full-time in Cotonou for a year and a half. I like this city, and I am grateful for the extraordinary encounters I have been able to have there. But right now, I just wanna go home.

I’ve stayed in several places at different times in my life (well, that’s a bit old-fashioned ????). But this is where I feel the least at home. I still haven’t gotten used to what I consider the « coldness » of Cotonou and the people who live there.

I feel constantly scrutinized, observed. Of course this is only temporary. I really hope it won’t last.


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Should we go after control?

Should we go after control?

I’m someone who likes to be in control. Over everything.

I like it when things happen the way I plan. It makes me feel less guilty when things don’t go my way.

Then I can tell myself that at least I haven’t been passive.

I never thought of myself as an entrepreneur

I never thought of myself as an entrepreneur. At least not the way we’re thinking about it here. So, with all the hype around the word right now, I wonder, am I wrong?

To my friends who ask me, I tell them that I see myself more as an independent professional. It’s true, I provide services for individuals and companies. Although these are still digital services, I don’t think the term « innovative » is the most appropriate one.

And in my opinion, entrepreneurship implies in one way or another a strong innovation.

So does that mean I’m not ambitious? That I don’t have dreams? I don’t think so. Just that my dreams and ambitions may not be as thunderous as those of others.

I want to create things. To use my skills and knowledge to create things that are useful to the many. But like I said, I wouldn’t call it entrepreneurship. Again, not as it is defined and seen here.

Today I remember

Usually I wake up and forget the dreams I have at night. But today I remember them.

I was visiting a kind of military camp (why? I don’t remember ????). But I remember that I had a total right to be there, and I had to occupy a privileged position there.

There was me, one person who had accompanied me, and some soldiers who were apparently on a break. We had a view of important buildings (I would say those of a government). A soldier was keeping watch from there in sniper mode.

The room we were in started with stairs, and ended with a kind of platform, where we were. And it was a really steep slope.

I don’t remember what we did there, but I remember having all the trouble in the world going down. In fact, I had my sneakers off (I had a React Element 55) when I got there. And they slipped down the stairs with the slope, and I couldn’t catch them anymore.

It was really weird, and I really don’t know how to describe it in words.


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